my song of the year

I usually have a CD in my car that plays over and over whenever I don't like anything on the radio. Sometimes when I'm not even paying attention, a line of a song reaches out and grabs me and unexpectedly elicits tears. I don't cry easily, and I've learned that tears are a signal that something is touching me at a level below my conscious awareness. So then, I listen to the whole song and find it speaks to some deep longing that God begins to nurture and grow. It's not just that I like the song, it's as though the song chooses me.

Last year the line was "take my world apart, I'm broken, on my knees" from "Worlds Apart", that I listened to for months as God dealt with my pride and my transitions and letting go and really loving Jesus. You can listen at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCezEbaMHdA&feature=related

This year it's the line "I wanna be where you are" from "Came to My Rescue". I listen to that song over and over and I hunger for more, to be close to God, in step with him instead of doing my own thing. It's at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWPABE3gycs&feature=related (If it sounds familiar, we sang it with Lyndsey's worship team once).

That's my prayer right now, the longing of my heart: Lord, I want to be where you are. Close, not up ahead or lagging behind, but where you are, in your presence, doing your thing, in your will.