Christmas in October

I am one of those people who likes to listen to Christmas music earlier than December. Usually I begin listening in September, this year I got a late start I began yesterday. I even found a new source, internet radio. I found several new stations with holiday music. So, I guess I must not be the only one.

I remember sharing this about myself in one of my small groups and someone came up to me after our meeting and confessed that she begins listening to Christmas music in July. That helped me to feel not so eccentric. Not that I mind being different, I can’t help being who God created me to be, unique.

A couple of days ago, I began to read a book I purchased a while ago. I know that I had started to read the book right after I got it (months ago), but for some reason I put it down and never picked it back up. As I began rereading the first few chapters, I realized that I must not have been ready to accept the material at that time, I seem more ready now.

This book is about blessing your spirit. I think that it resonants well with me now because I am thinking about all the things I need to do prior to my surgery. It is written as a 40 day series of daily blessings. (I estimate that I have just over 40 days until my surgery.)

As a preparation for surgery, I am being counseled to build up my immune system, my physical body. (It's interesting because as I write this, I am fighting off flu-like symptoms.) I know that I have been preparing myself emotionally for weeks. It never dawned on me to work on shoring up my spirit; and even if I did, I wouldn’t know how. So I consider this book a God thing. He knew months ago (probably more) that I would need this resource as well as others.

My process has been one of mostly letting go, letting go of control. My financial income has been cut in half. So I have had to work on letting go of worrying about not having enough. While I don’t have enough to make monthly expenses, I know in my spirit that everything will be okay. I don’t know how, but I know that eventually everything will be alright.

I have also been working on letting go of self sufficiency. In my depleted state, I have had to rely upon more and more people. I have had to let people in and let them help me.

I know that soon I will need even more people to help me with everyday things. Please keep me in your prayers. Pray for my physical healing. Pray for financial blessing. Pray that God will provide for all of my needs, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Gratefully,
Rick